Nothing Spectacular

Usually I only "blog" if I have something that I think is profound to say.  It is so deeply ingrained in my psyche that I *must* gain the attention of as many people as possible in as short a time as possible that the thought of simply posting a blog entry for fun never occurs to me.

I've been thinking about the blog thing the past day or two, and I realized (I think) a little more about how it works - people post stuff, and then it gets read based on how relevant it is to people's lives.  Like, if I put thoughts out here on the web, and you vibe with it, then you're likely to pass it on to others or reference it, and then others read it, and it grows like that.

Which is all fine and well . . .

. . . except when my intention is to get as much attention as possible.  Then the whole game gets spoiled by this desperate need to post just the right thing, and it ends up being forced and inauthentic.

Well . . .

This blog entry is nothing spectacular; it is not an event, it is not the launch of some crazy marketing campaign to draw the world's attention to my profile.  It is a regular ol', run-of-the-mill blog entry; a public rumination, if you will.

Here's something I learned this week:

I am the current Boot Camp Registrar for VisionForce, and as such I've been doing some email broadcasts and interacting with folks in the Vision Cafe pod, which has been incredible fun.  What these interactions have taught me is that it is better to share what I've got and then to simply be interested in what others are up to than it is to try and get anything.  It's certainly much more fun, and the getting happens automatically.

Thank god for zaadz; I get to train myself in how to serve, give, and love unconditionally, without expecting anything in return - and so far, I'm enjoying tremendous fruits in the form of new connections, people taking an interest in Conscious Celebration, etc. It's fun!

Even as I write this, though, putting it out there for *someone* to read, I half-expect (and fear) that noone will read it, and I hope that someone does.  Very strange, this blogging thing.  It's like having an open-ended conversation with humanity, who may or may not respond.

Well . . .  C'est la vie.  If no one responds, I'll get to find out whether or not it hurts when I'm not out to have people respond.

I think you will, though.  I'm sure I'm not the only one who has encountered this strange paradox of blogging, which occurs to me like journaling - only in a public diary . . .

I guess we'll see.

Thoughts?

Much love,

Shawn